Why Can't We Just Live Like Sophisticated Cavemen?

OK.
I know, I know. It has been... what, like over ten days since my last post (whatever, I'm not a mathematician. Get off my back).
Anyway, I got back from my holiday about 3 days ago (tanned to a slightly darker shade of beige. Oh yeah) and I just didn't want to. I mean, normally, I quite enjoy the feeling of blogging but the last few days I've just felt like doing anything but. Maybe it's because I've been out of the loop for a bit and just need to get going and back into the habit and the feelings will come back. That's what I'm hoping anyway. I actually feel just a bit better about it since I started. Cool.
So there's something I don't quite understand about people. Why aren't we on holiday all the time? It was fucking awesome! Whoever invented work was a real A-hole. Why can't we just live like sophisticated cavemen? Why do we have to do all this stuff like taxes and bills? Life could be so much simpler and easy if we didn't have all these obligations and shit that we are expected to do.
We could just tan and swim and not try so fucking hard. Instead, we have to do things that no one really wants to do to survive! How fucking twisted are we?
There's this girl in my school that I kind of just want to punch in the face. There is a reason. I don't just go around wanting to punch peoples faces. God, who do you think I am? Anyway, she just tries too fucking hard. I mean, seriously. Good grades are great and all and if you work hard to get something, it's a great feeling, I'll admit it, but spending your entire adolescence studying for a future that is the same amount of work and commitment sounds like a fucking nightmare. Don't get me wrong, I do well in school. I get good grades. There is one other thing though. I enjoy the time that I don't really have to spend working. Every time I leave school to go home at a reasonable hour, I see her either in the art rooms finishing off a project that, lets be honest, was finished two days ago or in the library, staying until the doors close at 4:30 to cram in any more knowledge that she may have missed.
At the end of her life, she is going to look back and think, not about her wonderful experiences and joys, but how much she worked and regret it. Life is supposed to be FUN! You only get one of them! Don't waste it! Don't waste it trying to please people because lets be straight with each other, that's what she's doing. She doesn't really want to overachieve until she dies. That sounds awful. Fuck.
While, yes, I do try to get ahead in this truly sick world, I take a break once in a while and just... live.
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It's Holiday Time.

OK.
So tomorrow I'll be on my way to a beach house! I will not be posting for about a week because I'll be too busy soaking up the Sun and just enjoying myself and not worrying about anything. I try not to get too involved with the outside world when I'm on holiday. No emails. No checking Facebook. Just relaxing.
Once I get home, I check everything and usually take a day to get back into routine and catch up with everything.
So I will post to you later!
It's Holiday Time.
It Could Be Better (It's pretty great actually).

Fashion Crimes.

OK.

I know what you're thinking. Fashion Crimes? Really? You're really going to judge other people's choices and criticize what they think looks cool? I know, I know. But once you hear what I have to say, you may change your view point on this subject. What I'm going to blog about is lines that you should never cross in fashion. I'm only telling you because I care about you. In reality, I'm saving you from harsh judgment of others, so in actual fact, you should be thanking me.

You're welcome.



So I realize that everyone has different styles. That's totally cool and fine. I dress rather differently from others around me and that's normal. If we all dressed the same, then there would be no trendsetters or stand outs and that's no fun.

What I do happen to notice quite a lot of the time is people following trends when clearly, your shape does not agree with you. I am a little hourglassy, so there are some things I would never dare to wear such as dresses which have a triangle shape to cover the boobs. NO. Maybe it is just me but I get over boob (breast spills over the top), side boob (you can guess that one) and many more boob crimes.

I would love to wear a dress with the triangle boob covers but when I notice that I look ridiculous in a new trend, I just don't wear it. That, and I want to spare the rest of the population from a sight that may burn your eyeballs.

Some do it to be cool or whatever but you don't need to. There are so many other options that can actually suit you.

I'm not going to go to far into this topic because I believe that if you wear something you like, you automatically feel more confident and that is wonderful. Everyone has different styles and preferences but just keep in mind that not every trend will look as great on you as you may hope. But there are trends that will. You just need to find them. Down below, I have left you with some no goes. Seriously. Just don't. For everyone's sake.

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Wear the item of clothing where it is supposed to be worn. Seriously!
 

There is no excuse to ever wear a fanny pack. Ever.

Wear stuff that fits you. Please.
Beware of the myth: "Skinny jeans make you look skinny."

Unless you can... No, I take it back. Never. Ever. Have hair like this. EVER.
Unless your goal is to give everyone else on this planet nightmares. One Donald is enough.

You don't need all of this. It makes you seem older and more superficial.
You're beautiful the way you are.







Bucket List.

OK.
First of all, why is a Bucket List called a "Bucket" List? In what way does a bucket relate to a list of things you would like to accomplish before you die? I'm a little lost there. Wait, I'll look it up...

So basically, the saying, "kicking the bucket," means that you die. This comes from a method of execution such as hanging or suicide in the Middle Ages where a noose is tied around the neck while standing over a bucket, presumably to catch the remains...? I get it now. I just needed to make the connections.
That was dark. Let's move on.
Everyone has a Bucket List whether they know it or not. I haven't really thought about it too much but there are things I would love to do before I die. It's kind of like Resolutions, but way more important. I don't really care too much if I don't finish a Resolution but things on my Bucket List are a different matter.
I don't want to get all religious on you, but I believe that once you die, you are dead and that's that. I guess you wouldn't really know if you had achieved your List or not if you are dead but I would really want to, and I am setting myself lifelong goals that are possible and will amaze me in ways that I could never imagine.
     1. Move away from New Zealand. Don't get me wrong, NZ's great but there's a whole world out there and I don't want to spend my entire life in one place. Since I am an American citizen, I guess I would take advantage of that opportunity and choose one of the many different places over there. Like New York City or Las Vegas or maybe even Alaska! I don't know. I'll figure that out as I go along.

A little bit fun.

A little bit crazy.

A little bit beautiful.

     2. TRAVEL! I know. It's the cliché, but c'mon! Who doesn't want to travel! I want to go everywhere. Places like Venice, Paris, Africa, Egypt, Antarctica and so many others it's not even funny. I know that it's a bit unlikely but even one would be the most incredible experience.
     3. Don't work until I die. This is one that I'm quite adamant about. What I mean by this is that I don't want to be so focused on a job I may have at the time, that I lose sight of life in general. There are quite a few films out there that show a super worker who neglects his or her family and just focuses on his or her job. I don't want to become this person and I will make it damn clear to my boss that family and friends come first. Maybe not damn clear, but clear enough and when the times arise where I must choose others...
     4. Hate my job in general. I really don't want to decide on something that I will regret for the rest of my life. I am confident that there is a job for me out there and I will find it. I feel a lot of pressure at my age to decide on something that I will have to do for the rest of my life. I don't want to screw it up. I really don't want to screw it up. Please don't screw it up. I am going to make damn sure that I choose the right one dammit.
     5. Be Remembered. This may be the one which could not happen. I wish though, that I could make my mark in any sort and in any way. You know how you read about influential people in magazines and news stories? Maybe not quite that spectacular but if I could help someone or change a life for the better, I feel like that would change me.
Maybe being someone spectacular in even the eyes of my family and friends will be enough for me.
I'm sure there are many other things I want to do before I die, but this is OK for now. I guess I'll figure it out as I go along...
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New Year's Resolutions. Hmmm... (part 2)

OK.
CONTINUING!
(The reason why I didn't just write it all in one was because I get kind of nervous when I type a big amount without saving (cuz I'm weird like that ) (when I save, it goes all, "I hate you," on me). Whatever... Moving on.
     5. Be happier with self. I've noticed that I compare a lot. I don't intentionally do it. It just sort of happens. Like a reflex or something. I end up thinking things like, "look how cool he is. You could never get him," or, "that's a really nice skirt. It would end at the widest part of your leg and hence, make you look fat. Don't buy it." I have stopped most of this but some is still to be resolved and dealt with.
     6. Don't be embarrassed at silly things. A couple of years ago, this was really bad. I couldn't walk down the street alone because I thought people would think I was a loner. I couldn't get a book out at the library because I thought that the librarian was making fun of my choices. It was ridiculous. Seriously. Like crazy ridiculous. I am nowhere near as bad now but some things that others are comfortable with, I'm just... not. I want to be able to do what I want and not worry about others' opinions so much. This kind of ties back into number 1 and 4 & 5. So this is probably the one I need to work on the most and the Resolution that I really want to change. I mean, how hard can it be to just be comfortable in your own skin. My haircut has really given me a lot of confidence so that's a start.
Hmmm. I can't think of anymore. Maybe that's enough for now. One step at a time huh? I shouldn't have to rely on the New Year to make me decide to change. If I want to be a better person, I should just go and do it.
YES!
Happy New Year. Have a fantastic year.
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New Year's Resolutions. Hmmm... (part 1)

OK.
First of all, Happy New Year everyone! This is one of my favorite holidays. Not only because it is pretty much part of Christmas (my actual favorite holiday! Yay!), but it is an excuse to start over. To renew yourself and change what will make you a better person and to become happier. The "New Year" title somehow makes it possible to start over. It gives people a goal. Me being one of them.
I'm going to share with you (whoever you may be), my New Year's Resolutions...
Last year, I made some pretty unrealistic and unofficial ones, such as -get a boyfriend, lose lots of weight, become super sexy, etc...
This year, I will make some challenging ones, but things that are achievable and will make me more confident and overall, happier.

1. Be more open towards people and stop caring so much. Back in 2012, I was a bit closed off. I guess I was worried what people would think of me. No matter what I do, I think there will always be a part of me that will care what others think. Everyone should, to some degree, but only for the right reasons. This year, I want to be able to make more friends and converse with more groups within the school I attend and with it being my senior year, I want to leave an impression on people and stand out. I recently made one attribute to that goal; I cut off all my hair. It hung halfway down my back but the thing is, I didn't do anything to it. I just lay there. I had it because it was the norm. I just didn't think about changing it because no one else did. Not many people my age cut their hair into a pixie cut and I was scared but I'm not anymore. I want to be different and original. I don't want to look like everyone else. It was freeing and I feel and look great as well as being much more confident.
2. Stop watching The Bachelor. No joke. STOP. IT IS A TERRIBLE SHOW AND SENDS A BAD MESSAGE. How it has run for 16 seasons is a mystery to me (it really isn't...(see image above))
3. Take more photos. Not just for facebook, but for me. For inspiration. It is a great feeling when you take a really beautiful photo and you hang it up so you can see it everyday. I want that feeling all the time. I have bulletin boards around my room and have started to pin up clipping from magazines, quotes from books and inspiring people. When I wake up or even glance into my room, I see beauty, and it's wonderful.
4. Dress nicer. My sister always borrows my clothes and I realized recently that I have all these wonderful clothes that I don't wear. It doesn't really make that much sense to me actually. Maybe because I'm afraid of standing out or taking risks. Well, NOT ANYMORE. (see numero uno).

By the way, I'm keeping a diary. Not a kiddy, "Bobby smiled at me today" type (which I guess my blog is?) but a 2013 organization one. I've never had one before but I should have because these things are fucking great. I'm writing all of my Resolutions down so that I can take them with me everywhere and write down more when they pop into my mind.
I'm really going to make this year count. I want to be a better person, for myself and others and this is just one step to making that happen.
*See my next installment of "New Year's Resolutions. Hmmm..." coming soon...
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